Sunday, April 20, 2008
Andy and Jen + 10???
Last night I went with my mom to see the "stars" from the TLC show "Jon and Kate+8" and now I love them even more!!! The event was awesome and gave so much unexpected clarity in my decision about whether or not to try to have a second baby. They were so inspirational that now somewhere deep down (verrrry deep down--lol) I almost wish that one day it will be ME looking at a polka-dotted ultrasound screen, very close to passing out or throwing up, but still accepting the crazy curve ball life has thrown me. They are so much like Andy and me that I can picture us in our own reality show, too--me freaking out and going nuts all the time instead of Kate, Andy quiet and calm in the background like Jon, sneakily rolling his eyes at me (and quickly denying he did when I accuse him). They banter for a crowd like Andy and me. They argue the same way we do. They even converse like Andy and me (Mostly Kate and I blah blah blah-ing while our men watch and wait and throw in a few jabs or comments when they can--ha ha ha!). The whole time they were talking last night, I wanted to run down to them and say, "Let's go out to dinner and hang out after the show! Be my friend!"...but I, instead, settled for being the first person in my group to ask them a question after the presentation was over. "How old were you guys when you first became the parents of eight?" (Lame, I know. It was all I could think of :oD...) They actually talked to me for quite awhile about how weird it was that they were only 27 and 29 with eight kids---Yaaaay! (I'm a big fan, if you can't tell). Anyways, the night was really perfect. Mom and I went to a delicious tapas restaurant downtown afterwards and had appetizers and a glass of wine. We had such a great time talking (and of course eating) and I really do feel ready now to follow my original plan to start trying to get pregnant next month (Okay, so my original plan was to get pregnant last year, and then it was to be pregnant by Christmas...and then it was to adopt and then it was to wait a few more years...but who's counting?). I am closer to understanding that I can't (and shouldn't try to) control every little detail of my life. So, what does the future hold for Little Miss Jen-Jen? I have no idea....and for the first time in a long time, that's okay. As the Gosselins would say, "Stay tuned!"
Sometimes you really do have to "Let go and let God".....